Falling in love with writing again
I started writing about ten years ago. It wasn’t very serious at first; it was just a coping method and a much healthier one than some others I’d tried. Then gradually things changed and I became much more serious about this writing thing. I started doing NaNoWriMo, jumped obsessively from story to story and became a great fan of freewriting. Then things gradually started to change again.
It started to be just about the word count. I was writing because I did it and it was not a good enough reason any more. This was the time when I participated in 750words.com, something that I started with the purest of intentions. I still think it is a great project that someone started, but it turned out to not be so good for me. It kept me writing when I really didn’t want to, and I thought it was a good thing. It was at first, but I am too competitive for it to last. I kept at it, but I was doing it for all the wrong reasons.
You see, 750words.com tracks the amount of days that you have written in a row and this is called a writing streak. All I wanted was that the number of days should go up. I started to hate writing and when I finally realised that it needed to end. On the day that I hit a 1,000 day writing streak (see how obsessed I became about the numbers) I broke it. I couldn’t write for the wrong reasons any more.
Then I stopped all writing.
When the 2014 NaNoWriMo season rolled around I decided at the last minute to give it one last try before I made a final choice about whether I would write again. In the beginning I still hated it. It was too hard. Only in the last few days of November when the story started to come together did I realise that I now had a first draft I didn’t have a month ago and that I really liked the story. Only then did I remember what it used to be like.
Now I have started to do something that I never did seriously before: I am revising my first draft. It needs a lot of changes and planning, but I like the story and I am writing for the right reasons again.
I might just want to talk only about writing for the next couple of weeks, because it is now always in my thoughts again. Just a warning.